Where would I be without silly putty and bubble wrap?

I'm fond of so many things. I love the smell of hand sanitzer when you just put it on, I love french-dipped sandwiches, and I love my rainbow bed sheets. I'm not fond of waking up in the morning. Usually what urges me to get out of bed in the morning (other than my rather pleasant alarm song) is the knowledge that I can go check my e-mail and see what magical messages had popped up while I slept. I love constant communication and attention. And I guess I'm not totally alone there, and the e-mail checking thing isn't gone, but my other morning ritual is.
In addition to seeing what the world had to say to me every morning, I like to text the person to whom I'm currently attached some variant of "Good morning, sunshine." Also not (that) weird. But what's weird is that right now, I have no one to say good morning to. Now, I'm not lonely: I have plenty of friends, a few of whom wouldn't even think it strange if I were to text them good morning (as most people are used to my gushing, over-zealous platonic love expressions). I do, however, miss having someone to take care of. I find myself restless and bored, even after just a couple of days of not having anyone to coddle or cuddle. I hope this gets easier, because right now I'm in a strange selfishness paradox. I need to think of only myself in order to achieve this goal, but besides achieving this goal, everything I want is, at this point, unhealthy. I can't be selfish and want to hold on to people who love me just because they love me. In time, when I'm ready, perhaps I'll be able to love someone fully, and not ever wonder if it's just because I crave attention and affection.
But for now, (because I need to talk about something esle and stop being a huge Eeyore) need to find alternate sources of entertainment and outlets for my insane energy. So far, I've made my four year plan and then done it again, had three cups of tea, eaten just to eat, and popped bubble wrap until every single one of the little imprisoned air pockets had burst. I guess I should probably be productive and learn French or something, but at this point, I need a better distraction. Do they make some sort of gum to wean people off of a perpetual desire for companionship?